Is it wrong when I just want to learn in a different environment that is more likely to push me to study? I hate the competition in Singapore. I never really got what I wanted. I didn't choose ttourist in river valley, and definitely not NUS. I am a lazy person. I only do things when I need to. I aim for pass and graduation, nothing more. I dislike the idea that even when u get into nus, u still have to compete for majors. I want a more relaxed environment. Ive already made it to uni, isn't that enough for my parents? I've made it through IP, all I want now is to go overseas. What can't they give me that. Whenever I asked my mom, she says that I'm selfish and didn't think of how big a burden it is for my dad financially. Well, if I didn't, i wouldn't even have picked up that phone call from NUS for an interview. I wouldn't have gone, I wouldn't have been enrolled.

Finance is tight I understand, but it is pure bullshit when friends around me seemingly less wealthy have full support from their parents to go overseas. What's the point for me to do well then? I should have poorer results so my parents will be forced to send me overseas? Aren't I supposed to be rewarded for doing a good job instead of being punished?

Am I still the one being selfish here?