the truth makes everything else appears to be false.
Esa Chica
DENGYIN and i'm 19 this year. I went to
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ME: roller-skates, whole set of harry potter dvds, digital camera.
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Thursday, February 23, 2012 @ 3:28 PM I am seriously upset over the fact that I'm not over I'm Australia with Ayesha. Even if I do go overseas for further studies, it would be so different from me going over there with her right now. I want to do it when I'm still young but seems like that is impossible now. I even wanted to work for a year before going over to study but parents don't allow me to do that. You know what, next time I should have been a more selfish person who didn't attend that stupid interview or just lie about not getting into any university. Next time my mon gonna tell me how I have no passion in anything, I'll tell her that I always wanted to go overseas to study psych, but she didn't allow me. So she have no right in saying I don't cause she's the one who ripped it off me |
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Wednesday, February 22, 2012 @ 2:15 AM sometimes i hope u will care more about me. i know u care, and im not supposed to compare. how am i supposed to do that? |
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Tuesday, February 21, 2012 @ 8:51 PM The selfish me I've been wondering these days whether I have passion for anything, anything at all. Mom told me that I don't have any passion and determination to finish anything. To be honest, I agree. I started guzheng till grade9 and stopped. But it's not a bad achievement already right? I wanted to be a psychologist but I'm going to major in economics now. I'm just tired of how unsupportive my parents are, like all my passions were "wrong". I want to learn to live my life now, that seems to be wrong too. So I guess I've lost passion in everything, just this robot who does whatever her parents deem fit. But why are they still complaining about me havin no passion? Isn't that what they want? A little girl who abides to them in every way. Is it wrong when I just want to learn in a different environment that is more likely to push me to study? I hate the competition in Singapore. I never really got what I wanted. I didn't choose ttourist in river valley, and definitely not NUS. I am a lazy person. I only do things when I need to. I aim for pass and graduation, nothing more. I dislike the idea that even when u get into nus, u still have to compete for majors. I want a more relaxed environment. Ive already made it to uni, isn't that enough for my parents? I've made it through IP, all I want now is to go overseas. What can't they give me that. Whenever I asked my mom, she says that I'm selfish and didn't think of how big a burden it is for my dad financially. Well, if I didn't, i wouldn't even have picked up that phone call from NUS for an interview. I wouldn't have gone, I wouldn't have been enrolled. Finance is tight I understand, but it is pure bullshit when friends around me seemingly less wealthy have full support from their parents to go overseas. What's the point for me to do well then? I should have poorer results so my parents will be forced to send me overseas? Aren't I supposed to be rewarded for doing a good job instead of being punished? Am I still the one being selfish here? |